It took quite a while,
Before my space...
Became a peaceful place,
Free and cleansed...
Of confusion I let in!
I had to remove and let go
Of emotional attachments
That kept me distracted...
And detached from me!
A 'me' I had not known existed,
Before I resisted change and growth.
I know what I want.
Now That I am totally undaunted
By fears of rejection and being taunted by doubts.
I found out I can do without deceit.
And self defeating comments critiquing my needs.
Within me they were valid.
That 'are' still!
And...
It took quite a while,
Before my space...
Became a peaceful place,
Free and cleansed...
Of confusion I let in!
And I am not going to begin,
To relive those moments again...
Because I have learned to forgive and forget.
I hope you are not relying on me,
To welcome your growth in my space on your terms?
That didn't work then!
And where my head is now...
Has been completely earned by your undoing
What I thought then could not be undone.
But you proved me wrong.
And I've moved on to reap this peace I am keeping!
It took quite a while,
Before my space...
Became a peaceful place,
Free and cleansed...
Of confusion I let in!
And you are outside of it.
Happily removed like a blood clot...
That stopped the flow of fresh air.
I am not craving to repeat you,
Anywhere in here...
Where I can deeply breathe freely!
I can not see that happening to me,
With you as an 'us'...
Again!
I am in complete recovery.
Lawrence S. Pertillar
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/happily-removed/
